all of the integral parts

c is trying to leave london before i arrive. that's all the long story of it boils down to. i'm reaping what i've sowed. i left him so long ago, he's leaving me now. all i can do is let go - completely release whatever i'm grasping onto and have faith that whatever happens, i'll be ok. 

it was for my best that my past relationships didn't work out - is c really that different? that's what i wanted to check. maybe i don't need to check.

most of all, i need to be cognizant that i do what i need to do for myself while i'm in london. i'm going in with questions, and i need to come out with what i've determined as my answers. i'm still in the driver's seat. if c chooses to remove himself from the list of variable factors, i can't let that fact lessen the importance of all the other integral parts.