to connect to music is to connect with god.
music is an art form as to allow every individual to like a unique blend. music is the code.
listening to vampire weekend for the first time, with my big retro headphones. the bass quality is so much better in the headphones than from my laptop.
the song campus has a thick bass line that i can feel in my core, right in my pussy. this base line feels great. it feels like someone's sex style. i feel great. i love listening to music when i'm stoned. it's a classic way of communing with god. music fans are the most devoted, the biggest praying, close to god individuals in our society. if they can't feel what music can do, then they have a long path ahead of them in their faith.
right now, today, this very second in my life -- this is a great day for music. epic day for music. music lovers are extremely spiritual.
it's a saturday night, after the first weed of spring term. whoa, first week of term. that's not even a freudian slip, i am stoned. it's raining outside, melting away the last of the december snow. it's almost mid january, such a nothing time. holidays are over, school has started, but nothing's stressful now.
it's funny how the english dress up for outings and are so concerned with fashion when they're so unfortunately really ugly.
this song walcott is amazing.
i'm having fun rocking out in my desk chair to this song. i'm actually feeling the joy of punk with 'a-punk' right now. i have the delight of feeling what others feel when they hear this. i have the privilege of feeling how someone else feels, of sharing their experience. getting their perspective. it's nice to visit someone else's joy. i can feel joy in new things, it can be my new joy, too. i'm having so much fun.
this sounds like something john cusak's high fidelity character would like, if that movie were set today. that would be interesting, in the future, take any movie and a computer could instantly update all the content as time went on. the way that computers can take old stock footage and create a person saying something new they'd never said as a statement while they were alive. to have a computer that could update slang, political events, fashion and technology. that would be insane. to see every moral of life in real time. i hate that term 'real time' because ALL time is REAL time. we're just catching up with reality, we're barely even cracking the beginning of it.
now's a fun time. everything is so RIGHT NOW. i'm dancing in my desk chair, loosening my core and abdominal muscles and belly dancing. this song oxford comma is really fun, i feel the joy in this the same way i feel about the music in spongebob squarepants. organ pianos are the best thing ever. that 60's semi-church organ music is cheesy and so very close to god. it's funny because it's true. it's funny because it's close to god.
we really do worship comedians as closer to god. they can access these feelings for us the way god does. we can see how they make us feel so good, but we can't figure out how they do it. they're magicians, they're god's messengers. unless those working in the church are especially funny, they're no closer to god than anyone -- they don't really know anymore than anyone else does. the same gods for any religion, any culture, anywhere.
this is my job. to get stoned and to let it flow. if i just stay put here through the summer, working and smoking and writing, i could produce a solid amount of written work. yea, just go out for my brother's wedding in the summer, but not plan a trip of a move until this fall.
maybe.
oh, toast popped.
people who don't like things with crusts are weird. crust is so great. crusts are great because they have layers. doing things while stoned is allowing yourself to immerse - wow i had the hardest time trying to figure out how to spell that word.
so what should i do in the future?
being high makes me feel like it's the future, as well as the present.
i'm eating this mediterranean hummus and at first i thought 'wow, why didn't i try this earlier?' and my guide said 'yea, why don't you try more new things more often?' and i said 'well, i just don't know until i know.' which is true. then i ate a few more crackers with this new hummus, and it's too spicy to my liking, and i thought 'this is exactly why i don't try more new things more often!' and my guide said 'well don't be too sure of what you know too soon.' knowledge is seeing how lessons progress over time, after the lesson has been learned. a lesson learned is only as valid as how long it's been adhered to since.
zing!
you can't (i can't) talk about how much you know unless you're living by what you've learned. which i'm not doing fully right now. i aspire to living in accordance with what i've learned in my life, but i procrastinate on that they way i might with school work or growing up.
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